Where is the wagon because i need to get back on it?!

Oh dear, oh dear! Where has my will power gone eh?!
Right, today is the first day of the rest of my life and i am going to get back to being thin... i think.... i hope... Argh!!!

I have quite literally been eating everything in site recently. The amount of chocolate and cakes that have passed my lips have been criminal and its not on! We only have about 6 weeks until Christmas and then i am going back to Turkey in February which is only 13 weeks away so i need to sort myself out!!!!

I am going back to weight watchers (i will weigh in next week as i cant get to the meeting tonight) but from today i am back to pointing all my food to see if i can shift this weight. I am desperate to start exercising again as well but i am staying with nan at the moment so i cant get to swimming unfortunately but i am going to start walking to the station again - even in this horrific weather!

I really dont want to put all the weight back on, to be honest, i would never let that happen, but i do want to get focused again. I feel sluggish, my clothes are getting tighter and my skin is really not good which isnt like me at all so i am determined to sort myself out!

One of lifes mysteries...

Why is it that the closer you get to your goal weight, the harder it is to stay on track?! You'd think that I would be super focused and excited about getting to where I've wanted to be for years but instead, I just want to drink and eat what I want and then worry about the consequences later!

I haven't fallen off the wagon since yesterday and I am still determined to be good this week but I have now made plans for Saturday night and I just know that it is going to involve a lot of alcohol which will inevitably mean that I will put on weight at the next weigh in. Urgh! Then the following weekend I am going up to Glasgow for a heavy alcohol fuelled time so chances are thin to nothing that I will lose weight that week.


So, now I need to decide... what is more important to me? Enjoying myself or getting to my goal weight? Since starting Weight Watchers I would have always said that getting to my goal weight is the most important thing but right now there is so much that I want to do that this diet lark is just getting in my way!

Off The Beaten Track

Woah, it's getting tough out there in the world of dieting! Having been so so good since getting back from holiday, I fell off the wagon quite spectacularly over the past week/weekend!

You know when you just get one of those hungry days? Well I’m the unlucky one. I get one of those weeks and however hard I try to curb my enthusiasm for eating the crappiest food I can find, I never quite succeed. Oh well, these things are sent to try us! So, having spent the past week eating everything in sight, including popcorn, chocolate, cakes and biscuits (I do like a good binge now and again!), I have decided that going to Weight Watchers to be weighed this evening probably wouldn’t be one of the best ideas I’ve ever had! So, it’s a night off for me!

Thankfully, I am feeling disgustingly bloated and very sick so I don’t want anymore of the crap inside me. My body is learning - this is big news!! Mind you, as much as I want to be focused, I’ve had a few tests this morning - the biggest being offered FREE chocolate croissants and muffins on my way to work! Seriously, when does that ever happen?! Try like never! Bloody diet!! So, it’s full steam ahead. Today I’ve had toast and tea for brekkie, an apple for my mid-morning snack and my lunch was corned beef salad followed by a raspberry yoghurt and I have another apple and a satsuma for later. I also have a weight watchers chocolate bar hidden in my draw if the craving gets too much!

Oh well, you live and learn... and eat! ;)

Down But Not Out!

I’ve been sick since last Tuesday and have been off work since Thursday - including all the Bank Holiday which doesn’t impress me!!


I’ve got a horrid and weird skin infection that has appeared on my face, it's not a good look. I've never suffered with bad skin so to have this thing appear on my chin is not good. I’m miserable and I want to eat.


I tried to stay within my Weight Watchers points allowance last week but because of the skin infection, I wasn’t able to go swimming so instead my sister and I came up with the bright idea of walking 10 miles - to our local High Street and back. BAD DECISION!! I am still in agony! On the plus side though, I’m hurting in places I never knew existed so it must have been fairly good for me!


Since getting back from my 4 week holiday in Turkey and having booked to go back again in October, I set a little target for myself at Weight Watchers - I really want to lose 2lbs a week because then I will have lost another stone by the time I go back. So, I went to weigh in on Monday after being sick and I was really worried because my current enemy (mini eggs) were still being unkind to me! I was desperate to lose 1lb because I had lost 3lbs the week before so I only needed to get to 4lbs to stick to my target so you can imagine how surprised and pleased I was when I got weighed in to find out I had lost 2.5lbs! Woo hoo!! I’m now only 2.5lbs short of what I was before I went on all my holidays 10 weeks ago so I’m very pleased with that!


This week is going to be a struggle because I am still sick so am craving crappy food. I’m also going to the cinema tonight, out for dinner tomorrow night with friends and it’s my Nan's birthday on Saturday so it will be out for dinner again. I also still cant go swimming because of this thing on my face so who knows what will happen on Monday at weigh in.... at least I only need to lose 0.5lb to stick to my target and anything else will be a bonus!


Only 44 days to go until I will be back in Turkey! Bring it on!

My Current Enemy

Argh! These things are killing me!!! My dad has a HUGE box of them and i swear, every night when i get in from work i can hear them calling my name!!

It's Been A While!

Well, it's been a while since I’ve updated this and to be fair, it's been a while since I’ve been tracking my points and taking weight watchers seriously but it has been well worth it!

In the past 9 weeks or so of not doing the diet properly, I have been to Gran Canaria, on a student exchange to Glasgow and London (which I was in charge of) and 4 weeks in Turkey which was pretty bloody fantastic! :)

The week in Gran Canaria was a wipe out in terms of the diet. Toasted sarnies and chips for lunch, pasta with garlic bread for dinner and ridiculously large amounts of alcohol every single night until about 6am. The only form of exercise I got was some crazy dancing and the occasional swim when I wasn’t too hungover! I got back from that amazing week having put 5lbs on - not good. What made it worse was that I knew I wasn’t going straight back to Weight Watchers.

The next two weeks was the 'London to Glasgow Exchange' which I was organising and in charge of. I had 12 students from London and Glasgow and it turned out to be 2 whole weeks of eating, drinking, laughing and sleeping with the odd lesson for the students to learn whilst I took the opportunity to do a bit of shopping or eat! Way too much greasy food and far too much alcohol meant that I put on another 7lbs so I was going to Turkey having put on 12lbs - not impressed!!

Even though I had put on so much weight, I was still at my lightest I have been for about 20 years going on holiday so I was still feeling great! I tried to use these four weeks to eat a bit more healthy and do more exercise but it didn’t last! The food in Turkey is lovely and it's very easy to be healthy - lots of rice, salad and fresh meat - rather than the greasy, fried food we could only get in Gran Canaria. The good intentions were there at the beginning of the holiday and I didn’t even touch very much alcohol but then disaster happened and I fell in love! From then on it was a downward spiral of drinking with him, having kebabs with him and generally NOT dieting with him! Ah well, it was an amazing holiday and I wouldn’t change a thing!

So, I went to Weight Watchers last Monday (August 17th 2009) for the first time after those heavy 9 or so weeks and I was very pleased to find out that in total, I had only put on 8lbs which meant that I had lost weight in Turkey - I knew it was a good holiday! :)

I’ve spent the last week trying to get back on track. It's been hard, I’m constantly hungry, but I’m using all my will power and I will get there! I surprisingly lost 3lbs at weigh in last night so I’m back on the right path. Anyway, I have another incentive now – I’m going back to Turkey in 53 days so once again the holiday countdown has begun which means back on the diet properly!

Wish me luck......!!

Another Loss!

Well, well, well! I went to Portsmouth at the weekend to see one of my very best friends from uni so i knew we were going to be hitting the alcohol and the junk food with a vengeance and i was nervous.

Ive been sticking to weight watchers religiously for the past couple of weeks and was determined to not fall off the wagon. I thought i would be ok seeing as my friend has been on the same diet for a number of years but panic set in when she told me that she was off the diet and wasn't feeling focused. Now, normally this would be like a green light to me to eat and drink what i want but with 3 holidays coming up, i knew i had to take charge and i informed her that i would be getting her back on track and we would try and be as good as possible.

After a 5 hour road trip to get to hers, i was starving but i knew at 9pm it was too late to have a big dinner so i had a couple of slices of toast and then got ready to go out. I slipped up when it came to the alcohol consumption and had far too many but still, i refused to have a burger at the end of the night.

On the Saturday, i insisted that we walked lots so we went to the beach, had a long walk, then went shopping which meant more walking, then had lunch (which was a Boots Shapers wrap and and apple) and then finally settled back at hers for a night of vegging out watching TV, DVDs and having a good gossip, just like old times! She was getting back on track so made us a lovely tomato and bacon pasta bake and i had a big salad with it to fill me up. Afterwards i had a toffee dessert by weight watchers from Morrisons which was definitely better than the chocolate fondue that she had previously thought about!

After dinner, we settled down to watch the TV but i could feel my dinner bloating me so she suggested going for another walk which i was more than happy with, so she got her pedometer down and off we went for a short, 20 minute walk around the block. We managed to burn 50 calories which i was happy with!

When we got back, we stayed up for ages talking and laughing and by about midnight, we were hungry again but instead of eating, we both had an Options Hot Chocolate with a shot of Baileys in... naughty but nice and well deserved!

On the Sunday, i drove back home. Even though i had been the best i could have been, i still felt like i had been naughty so i went for a swim with my dad which felt great. When we came back, i went for a long walk with my mum in the sun because i wanted to claw back a few bonus points. After having a little sleep after all that exercise, mum made a lovely roast beef dinner with loads of 0 point veg so i feasted out on that and then had some pineapple with passion fruit and pineapple sorbet for afters which was very refreshing and low on the weight watchers points! I was happy that even though i had been bad, i could've been a whole lot worse. I was still dreading weigh in on the Monday but knew that i wanted to go and face the music.

So, i had weigh in last night (Monday 25th May) and i was VERY happy to find out that i had lost 1.5lbs. Totally unexpected but very very welcomed! This has made me realise that i can still go out and thoroughly enjoy myself without undoing all the hard work i have done so far.

Me in Portsmouth

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Weightwatchers - How it Began

I've always been the biggest in my family and when i say biggest, if i'm honest, i mean fattest. I'm the oldest out of three children with my brother and sister being twins and two years younger than me.

Ever since i can remember, i've always been overweight. I never went shopping with my friends because i knew i would never be able to fit into the clothes in shops like Miss Selfridge and Topshop. Shopping was my enemy.

I've always been a tomboy through and through and was able to hide my weight and my figure under huge football shirts, jeans and hoodies. I was never a 'girly' girl and this was due to my weight. Always friends with the boys, never anything more.

I have always argued that i was happy with the way i was and at the time, i honestly believed i was. Trendy shops such as New Look started doing clothes for the larger size so i had nothing to complain about. I occasionally tried little diets but nothing ever worked, i wasn't committed to them and deep down, i didnt want to have to work hard at losing weight, i just wanted it to happen.

Two years ago i went on holiday to Aruba, i had a great time and came back in the holiday spirit, until i saw the photos of myself. I didnt like what i saw but i still wasnt convinced it was enough to make me diet. I spoke to my mum and said to her that i was thinking of either giving up smoking or going on a diet. Being my mum, i was convinced she would say about the smoking. She didnt. So, the following Monday, i joined weight watchers and i havent looked back.

I have been doing weight watchers since October 2007 and so far, in total, i have lost 6 stone and 1 1/2lbs. 85.5lbs which is 40% of my original weight. I have gone from a size 26 to a size 14 and i am still going strong.

Even though i am writing this blog as i near the end of my weightloss journey, i still wanted to share what i have been through and i want to write about the next part of my journey which is getting to my target weight and sticking to it.

Thanks for listening! :)